Everything I tell you about myself is true but I will not tell you everything.
I am in my mid-thirties, I live in the countryside. I work hard at my day job but in my free time I love to write. Well, really I love to experience all the things that I seek out but then I love to write about them.
For a long time I avoided thinking about this aspect of myself, the submission, the erotic part of myself, the desperate need to find someone stronger and more assertive than myself. I lived half my life with blinkers on, seeing half of anything and all of nothing. And then I realised that was no way to live. I realised I was waiting to die, watching the days pass by and letting myself be so full of dutiful piety that there was nothing else.
So now I am on a journey, an exploration, a quest. I want to know what I can be, I want to feel all the things I dreamed of, I want to name my desires and I want to share them with anyone that finds their way here.
I am here to live in my body, I want to kiss and be kissed. I want to adore and be adored, I want to be spanked, I want to be punished, held accountable, to be controlled and to be set free. I want to find the place where sensation and desire meet. I am here to seek out authority and play with it until it teaches me that it is stronger than me. I want to understand how I can want something my whole life and then fight it with my whole breath.
I do not believe every woman should submit or that every man is capable or worthy of leading but I am starting to know myself.
I think like many women, I have grown up believing I should want a certain set of things. I should want total independence, total equality and freedom in everything. It is just that I don’t want those things. And I am glad that I don’t.
I am not the woman I thought I was and I like myself all the better for it.
You can contact me at poppystvincent@yahoo.co.uk
Hi Poppy! I miss seeing your blog on a regular basis. How do I susbscribe to follow this one? I’m a tad ignorant in the ways of blogs still.
Thank you!
Elle
Hi, Elle!
I am sorry you have not been seeing it on a regular basis too.
You can subscribe by clicking at the new page I created to help people subscribe. I did this because you pointed out how hard it was. I really appreciate you letting me know that.
It is at the top of my home page. It says, “Click Here …etc”
Then just fill in your address and you will get an email. I try to do a new email every second day at between 7 and 8 pm USA time (central I think). It is about 1 am UK time.
Thank you very much for reading.
Poppy
Hi Poppy~ I so enjoy your writings and beautiful pictures~ I am so very new to this.. but so very excited about the journey.. Blessings to you.. And Thank you for voicing what one desires~.. Smile~
Thank you very much. I am glad you found me and really glad that you said hello.
You are the first woman [ a submissive] whom I came about purely by accident to read a blog with good taste!! Lots of times, I would walk away from my computer in disgust and think this type of lifestyle isnt for me! I was introduced to the “world of spanking” aka “the Lifestyle” [spring of 2002] after chatting in an Instant Message with a Top from Canada!! He explained his technique and how he soothed his submissive after her very red bottom started to sting!! From then on I got hooked but always back in my mind were the thoughts that acting this way was so very Taboo!! So off and on for 9 years Ive been a “closeted” submissive with a very strong will / totally independent of anyone!! However I must be searching for a special person, Ive yet to meet, to take control because why have I become once again interested in the “lifestyle”!!!!
Dear Poppy, for the first time I see the wonderful pictures of NICOLE KIDMAN at your site. The special shot of EYES WIDE SHUT was made by the director Stanley Kubrick and his wife Christiane. This great movie is one of the cinema masterpieces of all time. Thanks to Nicole and Tom for your work.