Sometimes, when I see a pretty bum looking all defenceless and soft I have no idea how on earth any man can want to spank a girl. It makes no sense to me.
I think Tops need to look into new hobbies.
I couldn’t sleep last night. I did sleep when Dev told me to. He left Skype on and as long as he was watching me I could sleep but eventually we both thought he could turn it off and I would stay asleep.
But then I woke up and that was that until about 4:45 am. It is 11 am now and my plans for Saturday and running around me and shrieking. Soon they will get bored and leave me alone. I am wishing that I could drink caffeine to help wake me up but that way lies yuckiness.
So I thought I would add to this post, which is just a two minute throwaway, as you well know, and add something honest.
I do not know what to do about the blogs. I love writing one with Dev, I love it so much. I love the safety of it and working with someone else. I love the camaraderie (I spelt that correctly! First time!) and I love the freedom. I can write anything I want there, anything.
Last night (and the day before) I worked on the post that is up there today. I loved writing it and chatting with Dev about it. But after I finished it I had no energy for anything else, hence this short post. Normally I am further ahead and write posts at least a month in advance. That is how I like to work and I can alter their timings, so if I want to insert a post I just move one forward. I like all that. It helps me feel calm and organised. I write better when I feel calm and organised. Writing right away for posting feels like someone shouting at me, “Be wise, be amusing, be erotic and do it NOW!” I must be clear that this is my internal voice shouting, no one else expects anything of me.
I am worried that I cannot create (or co-create in one case) two quality blogs and I do not want to do one good blog and one rubbish one. I am worried that I will run out of ideas and I know that kind of worry is the enemy of creativity.
What I love about here is having my name on the door. I love writing my Monday fantasies (although I had about 57 ideas for those, not one is written) and I love writing the more philosophical, thoughtful posts. Both of those I could do at the other blog. But I like the feeling here of being in my own room and just thinking about things, or pondering and fantasising.
So one option is to write one or two posts a week here and stop doing the fillers. That would take the pressure off but it costs numbers. People do not look at blogs so much that only get updated once or twice a week. And I, listen to this arrogance, want to be read. I know one writes for oneself and I know it is a fine and noble act to behave as though no one watches.
I love writing with Dev, I love the togetherness of running a site together, that is our place, our space. I will not stop that.
I get increasingly embarrassed by these short posts. They feel inauthentic here, they are not what I am. But I work full time (and then some- I do a lot of work at home) and I don’t have the time for long posts all the time.
There, that was me just talking to you. This may disappear later because I may feel that this is too much like showing you the stitching behind the tapestry. Or it may stick around because it is just this kind of honesty that makes me love writing here.
I am happy. Does that come across here? I am worried about work stuff (but that is because I can’t stop thinking rather than because anything is wrong) but I feel loved, I have a good weekend ahead and I bought new mascara the other day which makes my lashes look so long they almost look false. That is very happy making thing.
Here is something else happy making- I can’t stop watching it. If you do not at least smile then you must go to the doctors because I suspect you may be dead.
Poppy, good morning.
or 
and warm 
So what would you suggest as a fulfilling hobby for Himself.
I think that we have the best hobby of all, loving and caring for our
naughty Imps.
Have a good day
Paul.
Hi Paul,
I just added to this post!
He has lots of hobbies. He cooks like you would not believe, I am so proud of him. And he does a little writing.
Nothing seems to stop him spanking though.
I love your honesty, Poppy. No matter how often you choose to post here, I’ll be here and I’m sure the rest of the gang will be too.
Poppy, a couple of thoughts. First of all you have done an amazing job to write so prolifically for two blogs, but it does seem like you have set yourself a big task on top of other things. Could you have specific days here when you put up a post? Some blogs put up a story on a friday and I remember and look that day. You could also highlight on the blite when a post has gone up here. I think it is pretty normal for a writer to want to be read.
On a lighter note hobbies don’t seem to help, they take up cooking and get interested in wooden spoons, they take up gardening and get interested in switches.
Alice, Nik certainly likes gardening and his hickory sticks. Isn’t he a skilled carpenter too? And doesn’t he makes his own paddles? Maybe you can ask him to take up a course on massage, or write a blog? That will keep him busy and away from anything sinister.
Trust me, writing a blog does not help distract them.
and massage, they start massaging bottoms and that gives them other ideas again.
What about knitting or crochet, like your photo? That looks a bit safer.
I think crochet is best. They can make cute bonnets and they cannot be rude with crochet whatnots.
Thank you for the support. I could pick days to post, you are right and then make it regular so that people come to check on those days. That is a good idea.
Poppy,
and warm 
there is no need to explain, those of us who care about you are aware of your situation.
I will be here whether you post once a month or three times daily.
Congratulations on your spelling success, I’m impressed. Camaraderie.
Very funny song, I’m not really a film buff.
I’m afraid that you’re stuck with me.
Paul
I did smile. I’m not dead!
Funny song.
Wasn’t it? Cute, cute.
I have since thought that perhaps that humour might be a bit British but it travelled to Australia -so that is good.
Poppy, You have such a wonderful writing style that brings a smile to my face with every post. ( my Granddaughter has asked me why I’m smiling several times.) It is your page that starts my daily read. It is you and your silly friends with your youthful camaraderie that keeps me coming back. While nothing in this world is permanent your wisdom shown here is timeless.
Bisous. Cruel
You say the most wonderful things. I am honoured to make you smile. My friends are a delight, aren’t they?
I know I will hear your words to me echo for a long time.
Thank you
I always am helpful to Roman, and try to come up with new hobbies for him to keep him busy, but he does them very fast and then is on to the next thing. For instance, I bought him a bread making machine, thinking he would enjoy making his own bread. He only got up earlier so he could get it finished in 15 minutes, and then go on with his day. He is the kind of man who makes a to-do list with 583 things on it, and gets 582 done by the end of the day. It is so tiring to watch him that I have to go nap sometimes.
That brings me to the second part of this post: how much is it possible to do? And where do we draw the line? We are all different, in our energy levels and our drive and our determination. What makes some of us happy makes others stressed, and vice versa. But feeling stress is a result of an unmet expectation, so was the expectation reasonable? Was it fair to yourself to ask yourself to do so much?
I don’t know the answers in my own life, but I appreciate your discussion of them here. As always, what you write helps me to think and figure out things, or it makes me laugh and feel happy, or it is deliciously erotic, or it is just wonderfully honest. And I don’t care how often you write these things at all (okay, I love reading new ones every day, but really, that’s up to you). I will always be here reading.
Scarlet, I know that you are a busy girl yourself. In truth, had I the time I would write every day. I love it so much and I love your responses, whether they are playful or thoughtful or both.
I will work out a path.
I wonder if that is why I am walking so much. I keep picking harder and harder walks, longer and more desolate (the kind where you need a compass) – I think I am doing something but I do not know what.
The dogs do not care, they are happy just to walk. I will follow their lead. (Except I will also use a compass and a map and lead them a bit too.)
I have been thinking a long walk in the woods with the dogs would help me to sort out a few things myself. I know my paths pretty well, but a compass seems like a good idea. I think it is wonderfully wise of you to realize that by doing one thing you are also doing another.
Funny video and picture above. Good for you to think of the best way to take care of yourself and keep to your priorities. You ladies make me smile, make me think and accept parts of me I denied for years. You’ve helped me in ways you don’t know. Thank you and I will pop in and catch up or read any chance I get.
Scarlet – I know what you mean – Fisher is the energizer bunny on a caffeine buzz! All on about 4 hours of sleep a night. You are brilliant – thanks for the smiles and buses.
I am glad you liked it.
I think we help each other in this community. I am helped so much by all your comments and by how people take an idea that I post about (or Dev posts about) and just run with it.
Scarlet is amazing, isn’t she?
I know that there is many a day, especially lately, where I am so tired, with nothing even remotely creative floating around in my mind – and those are the days where I post something short…eh not always necessarily sweet
But I also need to know that people out there I am still there, a little bit quieter than normal at times, but still around.
And Poppy? I would read your blog/s anytime, anywhere – long or short, to me it does not matter. You are my daily dose of the day is not that bad…
Thank you so much, Raven.
You know how hard and how rewarding it is to blog well. I think I am going to be like that, a little quieter but still there.
Poppy, I like and am following your blogs, long and short, just because they usually are so sharpwitted!
Don’t change a winning formula.
p.s always in for new hobbies, rarely leave old ones.
But you must have lots of hobbies then!
Thank you.
If you met me this morning you would not think me sharp witted. I am unsure as to why Monday mornings are allowed.
Someone should do something about it. It should be their hobby.
Hobbies are important to keep Tops busy so they can forget all about other things and stay out of trouble. I can’t imagine Charley crocheting but he does have hobbies but when they are finished he still has time for other ventures.
Poppy, that was very heartfelt post, I am glad you decided not to delete it. I enjoy reading new posts but not at the risk of you burning yourself out. The suggestion for a scheduled twice a week ( or whatever you feel you can do without stressing yourself out) sounds like a great idea to me also. Even if you weren’t able to do that much we would still here when you did post. I enjoy the variety in your posts, anything from erotic or silly to deep, deep thought provoking. You need some “me” time. Just remember we love you whatever you decide.
This is so odd. I swore that I replied to this but clearly, I did not.
I would not drop below twice a week. I do not think I could.
Thank you so much.
I am all English now and shy. I will tell you that it hailed yesterday and now the sun is shining.
Poppy, the things you share here and at your other place are lovely and heartfelt, that is why we read them. Pushing yourself to write to keep a stressful schedule won’t make it any more enjoyable for your readers or yourself. Of course, this comes from a girl who hardly ever updates her blog
Loved the video
Hi, Em,
Thank you so much. I love being able to write these things and finding people gracious enough to read them an treat them gently.
When you do update your blog it is always a quality piece of work.
Video made me laugh. I will watch it again right now.
You are sweet and funny Poppy. The posts that come from nowhere are always the best, no point in trying to force it
This is a “short” post???
Hi Malcom!
What I meant was the original post was short. It was three sentences long- that was a short post.
But then I added to it. I did ramble but I needed to.
Nice to meet you.