May I just say to the girls who just shuddered and said to me, “No, I do not. I do not want to spank you. I do not even want to think about it,” that I know you don’t.
This post is one of very few that is not addressed to you. Read this instead or this one. They make me chortle.
This post is about the people who ticked the poll box that says, “Hi, Poppy, given half a chance, I would spank you.”
I have struggled to write this, more than I have struggled to write any post ever. This is the fourth version and is the shortest by about a thousand words and a ton of self induced panic.
This post is about those seven clicks on the poll post saying that they would spank me given half the chance.
I loved those clicks. I love that someone chose those. (Dev did not, he loved the one about not being told what to write which did not surprise me in the least. He has spanked me and will spank me again. There is no “half the chance” for him- he will tell you there is nothing of “chance” about it.)
I love that there are some people who read me and from my words feel like that. I am not a picture girl (well, not pictures of me) so I am tremendously complimented that anyone feels like that at all. I wish I could explain to you why. It means they understand me. It means they see me as I always wanted to be seen.
A part of me, an honest but key part of me longs to be a girl like Erica, a girl who men would like to spank. I bet it is a pain in the bum sometimes (tee hee) because I know some people are a bit yucky and rude, but that aside, I would like very much to be a girl like that.
Normally now, in previous versions of this post, I hurl myself down a staircase of self doubt and self recrimination but this time I will not. I will stay right here and talk to you.
I am a girl whose sexual, intellectual and emotional life is often expressed through spanking and all that goes with that. It is a feeling of desire and being desired. It is also a feeling of self worth when someone claims a resolution to spank me. It is the knowledge that someone wants to be stronger than me. When a man wants to spank me I feel complimented, adored, and like the woman and girl I always wanted to be.
That does not mean I would let lots of men spank me, any more than lots of men would travel to spank me.
This feels very daring. It feels like by saying I want this and by daring to hope that some other people might see me that way too, that the universe will jump up and slap me down. So if, in the next couple of days, something awful happens to me I shall never take a risk like this again.
It is wistful, wishful, it is desire and hope and dreaming.
These pictures are all of me. It is from my time with Dev. There are very, very few of these pictures and I doubt I shall share any more. But I wanted to share these few. I show you so much of myself, I wanted to show you what I look like when … you know, when …
Just once I want to stand up (or bend over) like those other girls, those girls I admire and who I am a little envious of. I want to say, “Hey, this is me. Hello.” Even though doing that is very scary. It is terrifying for a girl like me to do this. I have never been one of the pretty girls. I have been clever, witty, thoughtful, kind, and all sorts of things but never pretty, never desirable. I do not know if that is the way I look or the way I see myself- either way it is who I have been up until now and who I will be again tomorrow. But for tonight, for now, I want to be the girl someone wants to spank, the girl who is desired in the way she wishes to be desired.
And so to those seven people who clicked that (and yes, I know that if Erica, et al. had asked that question it would have been seven gazillion) I want to say thank you.
You made me feel good. I think I was designed for this, and I like that I can say those words at last.
This feels very daring. It feels terrifying. It feels wonderful.
(Only she is pretty and I tell her so. That may be the only thing she doesn’t believe when I tell her. I need to tell her more often I expect. -Dev)
So sweet! Lovely coy photos.
PS: Listen to Dev. He obviously knows what he’s talking about.
Welcome!
Thank you and I do my best to listen to Dev but it is hard when you are used to being naughty.
I have added your blog to my side bar.
I think you are beautiful, Poppy. These glimpses of you prove it, but I suspect no one who spends any time here needed to see them to know. You are beautiful inside and out.
Thank you, Em. I am sorry to surprise you with a picture of my bum, I feel there should be a warning.
I am shy but happy shy. Thank you.
xx
Well Poppy, if I could figure out how to vote in your poll, I’d definitely make it 8. And thank you for sharing a little bit more of yourself, because I for one certainly like your photos and they only reinforce the vote I’d make. I especially like the very narrow one because it is a very evocative view of a very spankable bottom.
I put the poll back on again because it did seem a bit silly to have closed it while I am doing this. Thank you so, so much for your comment. I promise only to read it another fifty seven times.
Oh Poppy, so lovely and so brave! :love :rose
Is it crass of me to say that I would kill to have your bottom?
Thank you, Kate and I bet you have a perfect bottom. I fail to see how someone that bakes as you do could have anything other than a beautiful everything. I hope the house search is going well.
My bum is a bit round because of the running.
Poppy, good evening. :rose :star :moon
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Ever since I first read you I have thought that you are beautiful, both inside and out.
I won’t allow myself to wish to spank you, firstly, you have made your choice, and secondly, I’m forty years older than you, why torture myself and most importantly I’m married.
Only from what you have written and revealed of yourself, you seem to me to be a desirable and beautiful woman, if I allowed it I could be very envious of Dev.
Thanks for the pictures.
Have you switched off the subscription, I was not notified of this, or the Top wanted post.
It could be a glitch on WordPress
Hopefully your are asleep and dreaming,
Have as good a Monday as possible
Love and warm hugs, :love
Paul.
Hi, Paul,
You are so lovely. Age is nothing but your marriage is everything and I am glad you are well loved.
I have not switched off the subscription, maybe WordPress was having an off day. I was fast asleep when you wrote this, Dev would not allow me to be anything else at that time of night.
xx
Hi Poppy,
Had I known there was a poll, I’d have surely ticked the “yes” box. Thank you for sharing the lovely photos.
Thank you so much! I added the poll again because I think I was a dufus to close it so soon and then write about it for yonks.
I might just leave this one up for a while.
Someone I deeply admire once said that life is about pushing oneself a bit…I know that’s true. And that life is best when we have courage for the journey.
Brave + Beautiful = Poppy
P.S. Kate’s right. You’ve got a nice bum, Popster!
(Paul, can I say that you are a wonderful man?)
Thank you and thank you for your encouragement when I had a blip. You are so kind and a good friend.
xxx
As the others have said, you are beautiful inside and outside, Poppy. There is beauty in your writing and choice of pictures. Beauty also shines through your honesty and courage, your interactions with your cyber friends and your relationship with Dev. Believe in yourself and in Dev, Poppy. :love
Good morning, Mindy.
Thank you, it is easy to be brave when there are people like you out there that speak up and makes things safe and lovely.
How could I do anything else but believe in myself with people like you around?
Oh, sweet girl. A woman who is loved, is also pretty and desirable. Beauty has so many more components than mere features. But I suspect yours are quite lovely and you see yourself with a pair of eyes that are far more critical than everyone else’s.
I smile when I read “a girl like me.” Ah, if only you knew the ugly duckling that still lurks within to this day.
Poppy, very brave and thought provoking as ever.
You should listen to Dev on this one if nothing else!
and well done you! :rose
Erica, you could never have been an ugly duckling. I think you are right about beauty though.
Alice, I am trying to listen to Dev. It is a hard habit to break (sticking my fingers in my ears and ignoring him for dear life!)
Ah Poppy,
Once again your honesty is breathtaking – except for your view of yourself which you probably think is honest. Not an original response from me but I can only echo those comments of the others – your soul is amazing and quite frankly I consider Dev the expert on your physical beauty. He is after all a Top – doesn’t that always make him right? I tried to put a sly smiley face here but appear to be technically challenged.
Your photos definitely indicate your bravery too!
On a lighter note – I have a question about Tops that maybe you and/or all your blog friends can help me with. Why do Tops need any implements for discipline? I mean really – are they not stronger than us on their own? Are their hands not tougher than our bottoms? Ok I see other implements for light fun and variety but for DISCIPLINE – who needs it!!
Hi, Annie. Poppy has been packed off to bed but wants you to know she will respond to you as soon as she can.
And as to implements, some girls’ bottoms ARE tougher than our hands. Here I’m thinking of Erica specifically, but many girls can take quite a lot, to the point where a Top might be concerned for the well being of his hand. But if we are talking about discipline, some implements become part of the disciplinary message. The cane, for instance, is an entire disciplinary essay in and of itself. School paddles and leather belts also have some of the same ‘medium is the message’ qualities. Just my thoughts.
And sobering ones they are!
Well, I’d love to spank you, too! (Hope that’s okay. What a lovely bottom.)
You are pretty! Dev said you kinda look like the Postrinzy (?) girl, and she’s gorgeous! People sometimes forget how quirky and original beauty can be, and compare their own type of attractiveness with another.
Annie, I don’t think his hand would hold out for discipline. For me, it needs to hit (sorry for the pun
) home or it doesn’t do anything. It may even leave me more frustrated. Does that help ?
Postriziny, Lorraine, but close enough. Her name is Magda, the girl in the film, and thanks for chiming in with that lovely reminder. She does look like Poppy, a lot. But as far as spanking her, Poppy isn’t much – well, not at all – for fun spankings, which is all one Bottom can give to another, although I feel sure she will appreciate the thought that prompted the offer.
And Annie, like Kaki said, if a discipline spanking doesn’t take, it’s worse than having none at all.
Dev, you are really cool.
Wow! Thank you very much, Lorraine. That makes me feel about 7 feet tall, it really does.
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I’m sorry, did you say something Dev? I can’t hear you from all the way down here!
Thanks for your thoughtful responses – even the incriminating ones :!:
Hi, Annie, welcome- it is lovely to meet you.
I think your question on implements is a great one and, rather than rush an answer, I will write a proper response as a post. You wrote a question that fitted in perfectly with a real life situation that faced yesterday- so thank you and I will email you when I post an answer.
Thank you so much for saying what you did. All these lovely comments balanced out and dismissed a horrid thing that someone said to me yesterday. I am learning to listen to lovely things more than horrid ones.
Lorraine, it is a lovely offer and thank you for reminding Dev of Proyguhuykzxy – it makes him smile which makes me smile.
He feels seven foot tall to me too.
Thank you for sharing these little bits of you!
Very cute!
Both the text and the pics :love
XX
Maria
Thank you for posting this, Poppy.
I love your blog!
xoxoxo
Libby
Thank you, Maria.
Libby, thank you for reading this and I am loving your blog too!
xxx
You are as cute as a button inside and out and that’s the truth. Self doubt is a troubling thing experienced by most people I’ve discovered. Good for you stepping outside your comfort zone and unwrapping it’s constrictive hold even if it’ll probably creep back around in a while. I hope that every time you slough it off it gets easier and it stays away longer and longer.
Dearest Poppy, is it too late for me to participate in this poll? If not, I would like to tick the box that says, ‘Hi, Poppy, given half a chance, I would spank you.’ And I would travel quite a long way to spank you. Make that a very long way. I don’t know if that helps you in your current frame of mind, but if it does, I’m glad.
It is the perfect time to participate.
It helps an awful lot and I love to know that you would travel for such an endeavour.
You do say the most delightful things.