Himself sent me this picture (from Firm Hand Spanking- why is he looking there?) and said that … well you can read what he said here.
At first I said that was all silly and refused to look at it, but then I slunk back and peeked.
She really does look a lot like me. My face is not that long but my hair does wave like that and her eyes, nose and my mouth, they are me to a tee. It has taken me ages to admit that I can see myself in her but I will not say that I pout because she is not pouting. She is simply in need of a cuddle and how anyone can not see that is a mystery to me.
I would not ever pass over an implement. I could not do that, I would be too shy and too overwhelmed. I would like to be that sort of girl but I am not. I cannot do it.
Two weeks today I will be with Himself. Bit by bit I am travelling there now. My skin is changing, my awareness of my body is building and sometimes I think of him and catch my breath with wanting and with desire.
But then I think of this picture and that face. I think of the moment when I look just like that, in the moment when I can’t alter what he will do, the moment when I feel small and scared and a little sulky. I am scared of that moment. I am scared of that moment because it is real, I feel it so deep inside me. I can’t believe how close it is and how much I need to be in it.
I don’t understand any of this.
I think I need a cuddle now.
Soon.
Oh my! That does look like you! Handing over an implement (or retrieving one from the drawer) is a very hard thing to do. Makes me feel excessively submissive when asked to do so. The expression on her face brings it all back to me and I have to put my hands over my face now. *blush*
The girl looks so vulnerable
XX
Maria
Yes, vulnerable but totally deserving of what is to come.
Two weeks? Are you counting down the hours?
Virtual hugs from
Hermione
Thank you for the hugs, I am counting every minute. She does look vulnerable, doesn't she?
I think when I look like that he should snuggle me!
I agree with you. A cuddle, definitely a cuddle.
Dear Poppy, this is line I loved best: "sometimes I think of him and catch my breath with wanting and desire." I have spent years and years with my husband, and he still makes me feel that way. I am so glad that you and Dev feel that way about each other.
Dev's post was so touching at the end that it took my breath away, and I couldn't write anything at all. I'll have to go back later and say something, but if anyone deserves a cuddle, it's the two of you, from each other.
And whatever else comes with that, before or after.
Also, I never hand over implements. Never touch them. Never suggest them. Never.
I am just seeing if I can comment here- because this is all new.